Total pages in book: 66
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
She was gravity, but because I cared about her and David, I had to go without her. I had to let myself drift away.
“I think I’m going to head out. I’ve been meaning to take a run,” I told them, not even caring that I was just drinking. I didn’t care if I got sick or whatever. I already felt as bad as I could.
“You sure? We could come with,” Elijah offered with a somber look on his face.
I shook my head. It wasn’t good for us to be alone so much, but it felt like I was in mourning. I longed for something that I couldn’t have, and I felt like dealing with that by myself.
“It’s fine. I’m just heading to the park. It shouldn’t be too busy around this time,” I replied before giving them a brief nod and putting some money on the bar.
I didn’t look at them again before leaving the bar, a soft breeze blowing through the town. I ventured to the small park with a pond and a running path, already breaking out into a jog before I even hit the pavement. Ever since I had gotten back, I had been standing still in place.
Running was the next best thing. Running from my troubles. My thoughts. My torturous, unfulfilled desires.
Chapter 24
Brianna
The feeling of a warm hand roaming up the side of my body coaxed my eyes to flutter open. Telling from the dim light outside, it was just before dawn. Despite feeling weighed down by the pressure of another day spent grappling with my conflicting emotions, I managed to turn over and face David, who had a concerned look on his face.
He had that look on his face ever since we returned from Vlasica, and it was because of me. I was stuck in a vortex of uncertainty and sadness, and he kept trying to reach out to me to pull me out, but I didn’t let him. Guilt seeped into my very soul as I took in the worry in his eyes.
“I miss you,” David murmured.
My heart ached as I gazed at him. I didn’t want to just hide in my shell away from the world and from him, but it was daunting thinking about coming out and facing the fact that our arrangement with the guys was pretty much over. We hadn’t talked about it. I hadn’t heard from the guys at all, so I assumed that they all moved on without a problem.
The thought of that stung, but I didn’t want to say it out loud and cause an issue between me and David. We were supposed to be strengthening our marriage, and I knew that I wasn’t helping things by shutting him out.
“I’m sorry,” I told him as I placed my hand on his cheek. “I know I’ve been worrying you. It’s just taking me a moment to get used to being back here. To how things used to be.”
David nodded in understanding before taking my hand and kissing my palm.
“I know. It’s an adjustment. Whatever you need, I’m here for you,” he reminded me.
I shared a grateful smile with him, a warm feeling gracing my chest. The tension in my body steadily alleviated as we gazed into each other’s eyes, silently connecting. We had both dealt with a lot lately. Emotionally. Physically.
I had been too shrouded in the darkness of my own thoughts that I didn’t take a moment to appreciate the fact that I wasn’t alone. I didn’t ever have to worry about being by myself because David loved me so deeply. I could see that in his eyes.
Without a word, I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his, my eyes sliding shut as I reveled in the warmth of his mouth against mine. Gradually, our lips started to move. Pressing. Brushing. Caressing.
David brushed his fingers through my hair as he slowly pushed me onto my back. He moved over me, his knee nudging my thighs apart. Our kiss deepened, his tongue brushing mine to draw a pleased sigh from me.
“I missed this too,” he told me.
I smiled and ran my hands up his bare chest, my heart starting to hammer as heat burned through my body. I missed feeling turned on like this. Like my body was being warmed by blissful fire.
“Touch me. Please,” I breathed out, yearning to be caressed again.
David leaned down and kissed my neck, letting his hand graze over my tank top to squeeze my breasts through the thin material. His fingertips slid lower, dipping beneath the waist of my panties to glide through my folds. He slowly rubbed my clit, his mouth still caressing my neck.
“Oh…” I gasped when he kissed the spot just behind my ear. I shuddered in bliss, pushing my hips up to grind against his hand.
In a flash, a memory of being with Amir and Aziel filled my mind. How they pleased me and moved me with their strength. How David watched with desire in his eyes. The thought turned me on even more, my body’s sensitivity increasing.