Total pages in book: 63
Estimated words: 57296 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 286(@200wpm)___ 229(@250wpm)___ 191(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 57296 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 286(@200wpm)___ 229(@250wpm)___ 191(@300wpm)
Before supper, though, Pyotr found me just as I was slipping out of my bedroom door to go to the kitchen in hope of quietly making my way to the sink again.
“Whore,” he said in his loathsome English, “Anya tells me you did a bad job. You will be whipped in the dining room after supper. You will be displayed during the meal.”
I wanted to remain stoic and to give him no satisfaction at all, but I knew my remaining hope of fulfilling my mission lay in appeasing Pyotr. I couldn’t truly please him, I felt certain. At any rate, though, I had to give him the twisted enjoyment of dominating me in his loathsome way. If I could persuade him that his version of the true mastery Ivan knew how to exercise represented real control, I might have the chance to get close enough to my owner at least to take the slim hope of a way out, a last, too-risky resort—not killing Ivan, because I knew I couldn’t do that, but somehow kidnapping him and calling the Guard to come get us.
All of that involved giving Pyotr what he wanted, so that I had at least the possibility of seeing Ivan again. I told myself, as I let my face pucker into a sob, that I was pretending—acting the part of the terrified bed girl for the butler’s benefit. Really, I felt precisely what the horrible man clearly hoped I would: fear, humiliation, and helpless need.
“Displayed?” I asked in a pitiful voice, genuinely mystified as to what the butler meant.
“You will see,” he replied coldly, and pointed down the hall toward the dining hall.
I hadn’t ever noticed the bench in the corner of the big, high-ceilinged room where Ivan’s henchmen usually had their meals, and where Ivan presided over a supper once a month. I had spent very little time there, because I usually ate alone in the kitchen or in Ivan’s private dining room. As two men carried the thing to the center of the room, amidst the long tables that formed a large square, though, I understood just as Pyotr had said I would.
It had a padded leather top, and it was graced with straps that had the very clear purpose of binding a woman in place with legs spread and backside raised, restrained at wrists, knees, and waist. They placed the bench so that the men at the head table, where of course the butler himself sat, would have the most intimate possible view of me as they ate.
“There,” Pyotr said simply, pointing to the horrid thing. “You blush so prettily, whore, but you have no real shame, do you? Let us see if we can teach you some.”
CHAPTER 16
Ivan
I had no intention of intervening in Pyotr’s fun. I had come back from an extremely unpleasant meeting with Boris Belkonov, the head of my energy business. To my dismay and disgust, I had had to threaten the greedy asshole’s life.
Putting a gun to Boris’ temple had saddened me as much as angered me, but I hadn’t seen another way. I detested the man despite the appearance to the world at large that he was a trusted lieutenant. I hadn’t really minded scaring him to ensure he would keep the power on for the families in the Eastern district who needed help with their electric bills. Having to make that kind of threat, though, while my bodyguard did the usual and held Boris upside down by his ankles, had reminded me of everything I didn’t want to think about.
Namely, the huge distance between what my life had become and what I had wanted it to be.
And, since she represented the most important and most urgent symbol of that distance, Heather Foster.
The fuck toy I had fallen in love with. Despite everything, including the wand that gave me such complete control over her that she couldn’t possibly feel the same way I did.
I sat in my study, willing myself not to turn on the video feed from the dining room. That frankly seemed like the easy part. The hard part was not thinking about Heather—not the sex, not the way her submission fed my dominant hunger to a fever pitch I had never experienced before. Rather her smile, and the way she looked when dressed in evening wear, and how her face lit up when she talked about helping the people in my district.
Fuck, I thought, I wouldn’t have held a gun to Belkonov’s head if Heather hadn’t made me realize how much I want to take care of the families whose lives I hold in my hand.
How much I want to take care of her, for trying to bring out something in me other than the iron-fisted warlord.
I couldn’t relax that iron fist, though. The men who ‘helped’ me run my little empire had none of the higher ideals Heather had so astonishingly uncovered in me. I had risen to this position because I had had no choice, really: Viktor Chemin, my predecessor, had given his minions two options—rise or die.